Baby - Lost

I just lost my baby ..its an ectopic pregnancy ...yes again..devastatingly yes again...
I cried and cried till my eyes swelled but it will not bring it back to me...
No one can understand my pain and sorrow...the lost...

Dearest Baby...I know this has been hard. It has been hard on me too...
Maybe it is fate for us to be parted in such short time...Please come back to mommy soon ok?
Mommy will love you forever.

Test

It's been quite awhile...Ian Baby is 14mths now....walking and babbling ...super duper cute...
He is so adorable I want to kiss him every moment.

I just tested positive....yes happy...but scared at the same time...
I am spotting and experiencing cramps...so scared...so so afraid it will happen again...I dun think I can take the heartbreak...
and worried whether Ian baby can accept another baby so soon...
But ...it is better to have than not to have right?

Oh god...pray for me ....

Moving House

We have moved!!!
We found a nice cozy place which is fantastic for the kids to grow up...super nice...
Super huge pool...nice park and eveything is good...
Our house is in our favourite color now...Nippon Sandstone...
Beautiful Paintings...sculptures...and best of all...i found my most precious! My Coffee table...
hahaha yes yes you can laugh all you can...coffee table special meh? Extremely!
Because my coffee table is carved out of one whole piece of wood....
Now you step into my house is like a museum! Antiques and nature's work everywhere.
Wait wait.....I will take pictures once everything is ready and nice nice huh???

Ian's sick!!!

Life has not been very kind lately.

My poor baby is sick.

He looks lethargic, clingy and tired.
So sad to see him like that.

Dearest bubu, get well soon ok ...Mommy loves you so much!