bits n pieces

Baby - Lost

2009-05-24T12:58:00.000-07:00

I just lost my baby ..its an ectopic pregnancy ...yes again..devastatingly yes again...
I cried and cried till my eyes swelled but it will not bring it back to me...
No one can understand my pain and sorrow...the lost...

Dearest Baby...I know this has been hard. It has been hard on me too...
Maybe it is fate for us to be parted in such short time...Please come back to mommy soon ok?
Mommy will love you forever.

Test

2009-05-19T10:07:00.000-07:00

It's been quite awhile...Ian Baby is 14mths now....walking and babbling ...super duper cute...
He is so adorable I want to kiss him every moment.

I just tested positive....yes happy...but scared at the same time...
I am spotting and experiencing cramps...so scared...so so afraid it will happen again...I dun think I can take the heartbreak...
and worried whether Ian baby can accept another baby so soon...
But ...it is better to have than not to have right?

Oh god...pray for me ....

Moving House

2009-05-19T10:03:00.000-07:00

We have moved!!!
We found a nice cozy place which is fantastic for the kids to grow up...super nice...
Super huge pool...nice park and eveything is good...
Our house is in our favourite color now...Nippon Sandstone...
Beautiful Paintings...sculptures...and best of all...i found my most precious! My Coffee table...
hahaha yes yes you can laugh all you can...coffee table special meh? Extremely!
Because my coffee table is carved out of one whole piece of wood....
Now you step into my house is like a museum! Antiques and nature's work everywhere.
Wait wait.....I will take pictures once everything is ready and nice nice huh???

Ian's sick!!!

2009-05-17T18:37:00.001-07:00

Life has not been very kind lately.

My poor baby is sick.

He looks lethargic, clingy and tired.
So sad to see him like that.

Dearest bubu, get well soon ok ...Mommy loves you so much!

Faces of Life

2008-08-24T01:58:00.000-07:00

i recently just realise that no matter how nice or how good u treat a friend, they will turn their back on you anytime.
I treated a friend very well. I let her stay at my house for a few mths cos her boyfriend cant house her before their house is ready.
We made sure she doesnt wake up hungry. We didnt mind taking care of her cos she is a very nice young gal with a gentle nature and character.She is my teacher's daughter too. We treated her boyfriend equally nice too. We thought we made 2 very nice ppl as friends. They were looking for furniture...I helped them source on auctions and we went furniture shopping together too.
but least did I expect that after they moved to their new home...We were forgotten.
They expect us to go to their place with me lugging my newborn along. Shouldnt it be the other way round?(they come visit me?)
I was baffled...I was very disappointed when they actually made friends with a bunch of ppl who used to bad mouth them all the time. I knew tat these ppl have some motive but i didnt want to say anything.
but wat i cant tolerate is their brother said some stuff about my teacher.
So we told our teacher.
These 2 friends chose to believe the bad guys than us...well wat can we say. They chose to be made used by them than to believe us who r true to our teacher. We never wanted our teacher to help us with our grooming or our dogs. We just want our teacher to rest well and enjoy her stay in Singapore than to slog for some ppl who doesnt put heart into learning.
If the boyfriend is not righteous, I can understand...on business point of view ...u have to be nice to everyone...but now wat he is doing is unbelieveable. I thought in the world of judging you have to be impartial....but today I realise tat's not the case. My poor friend who worked hard at improving herself till she nearly collapsed lost to someone who cant even hold a pair of scissors properly. How weird. Now I know there is so much unfairness in this world. I ask God y he must create such ppl to wreak havoc...nevertheless...wat's done cannot be undone.
And best thing is the nice young gal who is my teacher's daughter actually forgot cleanly how nice we were to her. I practically treated her like my sister and always worried about her.
But now i know they never treated us as friends and was never true to us. We r no longer useful to them thus we r forgotten.
And the one who I always pamper and thought to be innocent turned out to be really cunning and sly.
I hate this circle and I am going to leave it. One day they will realise who has been true.
I will always teach my children to be righteous and always do things with conscience.
I will always tell them to :
Touch your heart....touch your heart

PRIDE

2008-07-31T08:14:00.000-07:00

Pride? Everyone has it doesnt it?
U do I do everyone does.
having pride is a good thing. but it can turn nasty too
Today i was totally bashed by this thing. I was hurt....I cried buckets....but pride made sure i suffer.
It has hurt me deep and left gashes of scars in my heart.
As now I know it will not even let loved ones go unscathed.

Sick Sick Sick

2008-07-26T02:22:00.000-07:00

sigh....got the flu bug
Ian's been coughing a few days now....and now I got it too
but he doesnt have fever...*touch wood*
I HAVE!!!
Feel so lethargic!
Think I'll pay the dr a visit later or tmr...the dumb panadol doesnt work at all....

A Present to my Dearest

2008-07-21T19:21:00.001-07:00

On 13th July,

Our Man of the house has his birthday. He never likes to celebrate it. But I wanted to give him a surprise. So I quietly got him a gift I thought he might like - a nice wooden display chest for his beloved watches. Oh My...trying to get it done without him knowing is hardwork!

I had to wake up in the middle of the night to wrap it and no to mention trying to be really really quiet so as not to wake him!

The product is good..haha so proud of myself.....HEY I took lots of effort and loss of sleep to get it ready ok! Oh not to forget a Birthday Card that Ryan chose himself for his daddy...He has looked up his dad as a hero in his life!

But am so glad and happy that he liked it...

Happy Bday my dear....I'll love u always

catch RYAN for his 600m finals!

2008-07-08T00:54:00.000-07:00

Ryan Ryan Ryan Ryan Ryan!!!!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0fnUflcoGjU&feature=related

BB Ian's first roll over

2008-07-07T23:48:00.000-07:00

Ian used to hate tummy exercises...but his first attempt on his own was great! He even smiled.

So proud of my little baobei's accomplishment. It is lucky tat we caught it on video too!

Revamp ...my house's new look

2008-07-07T10:40:00.001-07:00

Trying to do the modern rustic look....
and we sold the house for a good price too!

Cute Cute Baby...

2008-07-07T10:22:00.000-07:00

feel like kissing him again n again n again n again

Ian is 3mths now....

2008-07-07T10:16:00.000-07:00

I think he is cuter than the bear

After all the struggle with breastfeeding...we are now starting to enjoy every moment of it now.

And BB Ian is thriving so well juz on my breast milk..isnt it amazing?

I have so many pics of him i want to load but think it will crash the server haha

8wks old

2008-07-07T09:52:00.001-07:00

Look at Ryan and Ian...so alike right? Little Ian is has become little Michelin too!

Ian's first smile....it is juz so difficult to get him to smile.....but he's learning

Look how much Ian has grown and he looks juz so adorable.

This is Daddy and Ian sleeping...haha look at the size difference...

but a second look....isnt it so heart warming

Ian's growing fast...

2008-07-07T09:33:00.001-07:00

Time flies...Ian is 6 weeks old liao
now he looks like daddy! He is starting to make cooing sounds. He loves cuddling. People say dun carry all the time, let him cry it out. I cant bear to do tat. I think it is ok to give him a sense of security. I think he needs tat. so i carry carry carry hehe...and loving every moment of it.

24th March ..Ian's born

2008-07-07T08:38:00.001-07:00

Hi Hi...Ian arrived on 24th march 2008

Oh my he is a splitting image of his Kor Kor Ryan!

He arrived via C-section by Dr Foong Lian Cheng. He is a sensitive and caring doctor.

Ian weighed 3.285kg at birth. He will be a total breast-fed baby!

Before Ian's born

2008-07-07T08:29:00.001-07:00

We can finally see this little being's arms legs head....

getting heavy and wish he'll arrive soon...

but at the same time i am so enjoying him being in me. All that kicks and punches he give tells me he's healthy and lively. Mommy is so in love with u already.

Baby 张大了

2007-09-10T08:10:00.000-07:00

07 Sep 07

Today is a wonderful day. 今天很开心。

I see my baby grow and moving too!!! 宝宝会动！！！

When I see the screen I am so happy I want to cry.

I hope she will grow up healthy and pretty....

My Baby at 6w2days

2007-09-03T11:13:00.000-07:00

EDD on 08 April 08

I saw her little heart beat...and I knew I'm in love again...

though I am afraid but I will brave thru it again.

Look at my love......

Mos

2007-09-03T10:49:00.001-07:00

3/09/2007 Raining

Today took a long time bathing Mos, ,y little maltese.

I wrapped him up in blue plastic wrap.look how cute he is...he is my future champion.