I just lost my baby ..its an ectopic pregnancy ...yes again..devastatingly yes again...
I cried and cried till my eyes swelled but it will not bring it back to me...
No one can understand my pain and sorrow...the lost...
Dearest Baby...I know this has been hard. It has been hard on me too...
Maybe it is fate for us to be parted in such short time...Please come back to mommy soon ok?
Mommy will love you forever.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
Test
It's been quite awhile...Ian Baby is 14mths now....walking and babbling ...super duper cute...
He is so adorable I want to kiss him every moment.
I just tested positive....yes happy...but scared at the same time...
I am spotting and experiencing cramps...so scared...so so afraid it will happen again...I dun think I can take the heartbreak...
and worried whether Ian baby can accept another baby so soon...
But ...it is better to have than not to have right?
Oh god...pray for me ....
He is so adorable I want to kiss him every moment.
I just tested positive....yes happy...but scared at the same time...
I am spotting and experiencing cramps...so scared...so so afraid it will happen again...I dun think I can take the heartbreak...
and worried whether Ian baby can accept another baby so soon...
But ...it is better to have than not to have right?
Oh god...pray for me ....
Moving House
We have moved!!!
We found a nice cozy place which is fantastic for the kids to grow up...super nice...
Super huge pool...nice park and eveything is good...
Our house is in our favourite color now...Nippon Sandstone...
Beautiful Paintings...sculptures...and best of all...i found my most precious! My Coffee table...
hahaha yes yes you can laugh all you can...coffee table special meh? Extremely!
Because my coffee table is carved out of one whole piece of wood....
Now you step into my house is like a museum! Antiques and nature's work everywhere.
Wait wait.....I will take pictures once everything is ready and nice nice huh???
We found a nice cozy place which is fantastic for the kids to grow up...super nice...
Super huge pool...nice park and eveything is good...
Our house is in our favourite color now...Nippon Sandstone...
Beautiful Paintings...sculptures...and best of all...i found my most precious! My Coffee table...
hahaha yes yes you can laugh all you can...coffee table special meh? Extremely!
Because my coffee table is carved out of one whole piece of wood....
Now you step into my house is like a museum! Antiques and nature's work everywhere.
Wait wait.....I will take pictures once everything is ready and nice nice huh???
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Ian's sick!!!
Life has not been very kind lately.
My poor baby is sick.
He looks lethargic, clingy and tired.
So sad to see him like that.
So sad to see him like that.
Dearest bubu, get well soon ok ...Mommy loves you so much!
Sunday, August 24, 2008
Faces of Life
i recently just realise that no matter how nice or how good u treat a friend, they will turn their back on you anytime.
I treated a friend very well. I let her stay at my house for a few mths cos her boyfriend cant house her before their house is ready.
We made sure she doesnt wake up hungry. We didnt mind taking care of her cos she is a very nice young gal with a gentle nature and character.She is my teacher's daughter too. We treated her boyfriend equally nice too. We thought we made 2 very nice ppl as friends. They were looking for furniture...I helped them source on auctions and we went furniture shopping together too.
but least did I expect that after they moved to their new home...We were forgotten.
They expect us to go to their place with me lugging my newborn along. Shouldnt it be the other way round?(they come visit me?)
I was baffled...I was very disappointed when they actually made friends with a bunch of ppl who used to bad mouth them all the time. I knew tat these ppl have some motive but i didnt want to say anything.
but wat i cant tolerate is their brother said some stuff about my teacher.
So we told our teacher.
These 2 friends chose to believe the bad guys than us...well wat can we say. They chose to be made used by them than to believe us who r true to our teacher. We never wanted our teacher to help us with our grooming or our dogs. We just want our teacher to rest well and enjoy her stay in Singapore than to slog for some ppl who doesnt put heart into learning.
If the boyfriend is not righteous, I can understand...on business point of view ...u have to be nice to everyone...but now wat he is doing is unbelieveable. I thought in the world of judging you have to be impartial....but today I realise tat's not the case. My poor friend who worked hard at improving herself till she nearly collapsed lost to someone who cant even hold a pair of scissors properly. How weird. Now I know there is so much unfairness in this world. I ask God y he must create such ppl to wreak havoc...nevertheless...wat's done cannot be undone.
And best thing is the nice young gal who is my teacher's daughter actually forgot cleanly how nice we were to her. I practically treated her like my sister and always worried about her.
But now i know they never treated us as friends and was never true to us. We r no longer useful to them thus we r forgotten.
And the one who I always pamper and thought to be innocent turned out to be really cunning and sly.
I hate this circle and I am going to leave it. One day they will realise who has been true.
I will always teach my children to be righteous and always do things with conscience.
I will always tell them to :
Touch your heart....touch your heart
I treated a friend very well. I let her stay at my house for a few mths cos her boyfriend cant house her before their house is ready.
We made sure she doesnt wake up hungry. We didnt mind taking care of her cos she is a very nice young gal with a gentle nature and character.She is my teacher's daughter too. We treated her boyfriend equally nice too. We thought we made 2 very nice ppl as friends. They were looking for furniture...I helped them source on auctions and we went furniture shopping together too.
but least did I expect that after they moved to their new home...We were forgotten.
They expect us to go to their place with me lugging my newborn along. Shouldnt it be the other way round?(they come visit me?)
I was baffled...I was very disappointed when they actually made friends with a bunch of ppl who used to bad mouth them all the time. I knew tat these ppl have some motive but i didnt want to say anything.
but wat i cant tolerate is their brother said some stuff about my teacher.
So we told our teacher.
These 2 friends chose to believe the bad guys than us...well wat can we say. They chose to be made used by them than to believe us who r true to our teacher. We never wanted our teacher to help us with our grooming or our dogs. We just want our teacher to rest well and enjoy her stay in Singapore than to slog for some ppl who doesnt put heart into learning.
If the boyfriend is not righteous, I can understand...on business point of view ...u have to be nice to everyone...but now wat he is doing is unbelieveable. I thought in the world of judging you have to be impartial....but today I realise tat's not the case. My poor friend who worked hard at improving herself till she nearly collapsed lost to someone who cant even hold a pair of scissors properly. How weird. Now I know there is so much unfairness in this world. I ask God y he must create such ppl to wreak havoc...nevertheless...wat's done cannot be undone.
And best thing is the nice young gal who is my teacher's daughter actually forgot cleanly how nice we were to her. I practically treated her like my sister and always worried about her.
But now i know they never treated us as friends and was never true to us. We r no longer useful to them thus we r forgotten.
And the one who I always pamper and thought to be innocent turned out to be really cunning and sly.
I hate this circle and I am going to leave it. One day they will realise who has been true.
I will always teach my children to be righteous and always do things with conscience.
I will always tell them to :
Touch your heart....touch your heart
Thursday, July 31, 2008
PRIDE
Pride? Everyone has it doesnt it?
U do I do everyone does.
having pride is a good thing. but it can turn nasty too
Today i was totally bashed by this thing. I was hurt....I cried buckets....but pride made sure i suffer.
It has hurt me deep and left gashes of scars in my heart.
As now I know it will not even let loved ones go unscathed.
U do I do everyone does.
having pride is a good thing. but it can turn nasty too
Today i was totally bashed by this thing. I was hurt....I cried buckets....but pride made sure i suffer.
It has hurt me deep and left gashes of scars in my heart.
As now I know it will not even let loved ones go unscathed.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Sick Sick Sick
sigh....got the flu bug
Ian's been coughing a few days now....and now I got it too
but he doesnt have fever...*touch wood*
I HAVE!!!
Feel so lethargic!
Think I'll pay the dr a visit later or tmr...the dumb panadol doesnt work at all....
Ian's been coughing a few days now....and now I got it too
but he doesnt have fever...*touch wood*
I HAVE!!!
Feel so lethargic!
Think I'll pay the dr a visit later or tmr...the dumb panadol doesnt work at all....
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